Limbering Up...I Hope

My YMCA

So, many things have happened to me in the past 3 years and most recently, the past 8 months with two back to back back surgeries, discovering I have a hearing impairment and loosing my job due to that hearing impairment.

When I left my job in 2007 to move to Washington state, I had planned on going back to work and the economy tanked, so I found jobs I could do that helped pay bills.  Our credit tanked, our home is worth less than 1/2 what we paid for it...well, we can sell it for $80K and the bank wants us to sign a modification for $152K and I am in complete turmoil over this.

I finally go back to the career I love in emergency communications and get terminated due to a hearing loss.  It threw me into a deep dark depression some of which I have recovered from.  This coupled with my chronic back pain and spasms after surgeries and one can say I kind of gave up a bit.  I was lost, unorganized and confused.

Not much got done around here, because I sat around on the couch, slept, kept the curtains drawn and just withdrew.  None of you would have known that however!

When my disability was approved, it lifted a huge weight off my shoulders, I could breathe, I didn't have to feel like I was a bad person because I couldn't work anymore and I realized I had to feel better!  So, I joined the local YMCA!

However, while I dropped the kids off each day to swim, I made excuses for why I couldn't go.  Then I met Michelle.  Michelle is a fitness trainer who signed me up and she has called me to check on me.  I had to become accountable to her in order to motivate myself.

Today for the first time,I got up and I actually went to a class that is geared to people who have difficulty with movement and though I was the youngest in the class and couldn't move as well as the others and hurt like made right now, I went and I let Michelle know I went and I will go back Wednesday and try again.

If I continue to sit around, I will never move, but if I get out once in awhile and at least try, perhaps the sun will shine just a bit brighter in my world today!