Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Tired of Scratching The Bottom Of The Barrel

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired! But what I am most sick of, is always seeming to be scratching the bottom of the barrel. I hate being broke! I hate not being able to work full-time and to take care of my home the way it needs caring for. I regret majorly, not renting prior to purchasing our home and knowing I would not be able to find full-time work.

I understand healing takes awhile and I get that, but my mortgage company doesn't get it. My creditors don't get it and my doctors really don't get it. It is easy to say things will get better (I know they will) when you aren't sitting in my chair.

What really aggravates me is we can't sell our home because it doesn't have central heat. We can't sell a home with 2 fireplaces for heat because the banks won't loan money on it, so we are stuck in a Catch 22.

If we sell, we probably can't purchase another home because our credit stinks! At this point, we probably couldn't even rent a box!

My mom is dying. No matter what anyone says, I can hear it in her lungs and yet...I can't pay for my son and his wife to fly to see her with the new baby. I can't help my oldest son take a bus trip to see her and I don't have the money for us to see her.

I am not asking anyone for anything, I am just stating the facts and feeling frustrated. Thanks for letting me vent!


Sherry said...

Oh Jean, you are not alone. I hope things will get better for you and your family. It's so frustrating and endless looking sometimes. It seems like everything has hit you at once and I'm sure it's hard to see the light...but I'm sure it's there, hidden maybe a little deep, but it's there. I hope things get better sooner than later for you!

Hugs and I'll be praying for your Mom!!

Knitting Granny said...

Jean, I sure can empathize...'Nuff said!
Also, just wanted you to know how much I like the items you have on display at Art Fire, and if I weren't in pretty much the same pickle as you are (financially) I would purchase some of your stuff!!!