Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Good-Bye to All My Friends

I am leaving this blog up for about another 2 weeks and then I am closing it down. My depression has become so overwhelming I cannot do this anymore.

I will miss each and everyone of you and have made some wonderful friends on this blog, but as they say, all good things must end and so this has met its time and is closing.

I would love to keep in touch with you though....please if you feel comfy, send me your name and mailing address and I promise to keep in touch with you the old fashioned way.

I just feel time spent blogging and on my computer has sucked the life out of me. That and not having a job has taken such a horrible toll on me lately. If we could sit down and share a cup of coffee, I would tell you keep in contact with friends, call them once in awhile, send them a note, ask them out for a walk if you life close.

We have all become so used to working and putting our car in our garage, going into the house, sitting on our back porches surrounded by fences where we can see no one and no one can see us. We lock ourselves away and this for one is not good for me.

Yes, I know there is a God. Yes, I have faith in God and I know He does amazing things. I also feel that while He brought us to where we are at this time in our life, that He has forsaken me. My life is chipping away, slowly I am fading, my strength is not what it used to be, the knot in the rope has gone and I am falling.

Don't read to much into this....I am not going to end my life, that would just be stupid, but I am going to try to find my mind where ever it has gone away and I am going to try to find myself because somewhere along this journey over the past few years, I have lost myself!

Blessings to you all, I will shut this blog down in a week or two.


Vicki said...

I am so sorry to hear this news. To me it seemed like you were enjoying blogging, it seemed that over the past few weeks you were blogging more and that you life was looking bright. I know that when you do blog more and people don't respond you can feel that you are wasting time.

I do enjoy reading your blog and wish you would reconsider, but I know that we have to do what we think is best for ourselves.

The thing I do want to share is that I (my family) has also had their share of what the world would call a run of "bad luck" or "tragic times". What I learned from that is
#1. Satan attacks those who he knows can do much and stand for God. The more he attacks means that other's are watching and want to see how true you are to your God.
#2 You have the power to tell Satan to knock it off. You are a child of THE KING.
That doesn't mean that everything gets rosy but it kind of lays down a boundary. You confirm to yourself and Satan that you are Christ's and that Christ is who you will follow.

I think sometimes we get so beaten down by the world and even though we are trying to walk with God, there is too much junk that gets in our way.

I wish you well and pray God will continue to use you.

Charity said...

I pray for your complete healing and freedom from this affliction.

Do not be anxious over anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication along with thanksgiving let YOUR petitions be made known to God; and the peace of God that excels all thought will guard YOUR hearts and YOUR mental powers by means of Christ Jesus. – Philippians 4:6,7

Naila Moon said...

I am so sorry to see you go. Life does take its toll on us sometimes. Maybe just take a break instead of leaving all together.

I understand about depression and all that. I do.I wish you well none-the-less.

Peace...Naila Moon

Esther said...

Listen, I just saw your blog for the first time a couple of minutes ago. I don't know what you're going through, but I want you to know I'm praying for you tonight. I'm going to pray that he'll touch you and reveal himself to you in new, amazing ways. He knows you, he loves you, he will never forsake you.

Andra Gayle said...

Best wishes to you!

Liz said...

This saddened me to read this. All I can offer you is please read the book of Job. He thought God had forsaken him but in the end job was given back twice as much.Please read 1Kings19 as ell. I am not wishing to upset you but my heart softens for people going through depression and I would like to encourage you.

Mego said...

My heart goes out to you. Depression is an insidious thing. God DOES love you and although it sounds trite, he never gives you more than you can handle. Stop! Smell the flowers. Get out of the house. It WILL get better. Best wishes for the next phase.

Scrappy quilter said...

So sorry to hear this, however I can understand. Feel free to e-mail me anytime. Hugs

Samantha, Idaho, US said...

Please come back Sweetie. Just take a break, don't leave us. We all need each other and we need you just as much as you need us. Take a small break from blogging, sew a quilt, something. We will be here waiting for you when you return. Promise.

Katherine said...

I will definitely be keeping you in my prayers! I love you very much. You are a hero in my eyes and I definitely hope that we keep in touch!

All my love and prayers,


Jessica said...

I've enjoyed reading your blog. You will be missed. Best wishes.

Quiltingranny said...

Thank you all and I will reply to each one of you! Blessings!

Trace said...

Oh no!! You will be missed!!! I really enjoyed my visits here and I loved your wonderful words of wisdom that you left for me in my comments section of my own blog.

I'll pray for you. I am going through a similar emotional crisis - so I can relate somewhat. HUGS! I hope that you will let us know how you are doing.

Trace xx

JustPam said...

I do not know what you are going through, but it sounds like you need a good support system. Is there a group at your church or a local hospital that you could join? I think you have a lot on your plate, and that does take a toll on one. I wish there were something I could do to help. I am lifting you up in prayer.

~Niki~ said...

have you applied for social sec. and SMI status? I just did :(

Clueless_Mama said...

I am so sorry to hear you are struggling right now. You are not alone, I can assure you. I think taking a break from blogging can be very beneficial at times. I hope that it gives you time to reflect on what truly makes you happy.

You will be in my thoughts. If you need anything, please don't hesitate to reach out. As I said, you are never alone in this!