I am leaving this blog up for about another 2 weeks and then I am closing it down. My depression has become so overwhelming I cannot do this anymore.
I will miss each and everyone of you and have made some wonderful friends on this blog, but as they say, all good things must end and so this has met its time and is closing.
I would love to keep in touch with you though....please if you feel comfy, send me your name and mailing address and I promise to keep in touch with you the old fashioned way.
I just feel time spent blogging and on my computer has sucked the life out of me. That and not having a job has taken such a horrible toll on me lately. If we could sit down and share a cup of coffee, I would tell you keep in contact with friends, call them once in awhile, send them a note, ask them out for a walk if you life close.
We have all become so used to working and putting our car in our garage, going into the house, sitting on our back porches surrounded by fences where we can see no one and no one can see us. We lock ourselves away and this for one is not good for me.
Yes, I know there is a God. Yes, I have faith in God and I know He does amazing things. I also feel that while He brought us to where we are at this time in our life, that He has forsaken me. My life is chipping away, slowly I am fading, my strength is not what it used to be, the knot in the rope has gone and I am falling.
Don't read to much into this....I am not going to end my life, that would just be stupid, but I am going to try to find my mind where ever it has gone away and I am going to try to find myself because somewhere along this journey over the past few years, I have lost myself!
Blessings to you all, I will shut this blog down in a week or two.