Wednesday, December 16, 2009

A Tad of A Set Back

I have had a tad bit of a set back I believe when it comes to my back and so today, I did pretty much of nothing but laying on the heating pad (I'd ice my back, but can't reach it) and working a quilt out in my head and then working on a hand quilted block. If it comes out okay and how I am hoping it will, I will post pics here!

I am not sure what is happening to my back, but those who know me, know I am not now, nor have I ever been a very patient person. A few days ago my normal aches began to get worse and seem to have settled in my lower right back and leg. Yesterday I subbed, but since it was older students, I had them do the overhead corrections because I can't bend to do so.

When I got to work I was in pain and began to pace and sit and sit and pace trying to get comfortable and couldn't. By the end of my third hour, the pain was progressively worse and since I am at school and with students, I do not bring my pain medication with me and I can't take anti-inflammatories, so by the end of the day I could barely move.

I helped the kids with their homework from the couch and then the oldest and I sat and looked at my newest cookbook...Hey John, I got the diet one and can't wait to try the recipes!

By the time it was bedtime, I had taken two pain pills and yet, when I laid down, I could barely move (this felt like I did right after surgery). I even had to have hubby help me up to the bathroom and to rub my back several times during the night due to the cramping I had.

I was up and down after that from about 0130 on, paceing and sitting and laying and could not get comfortable. Today it was much worse, so when I called the doctor, I was shocked to not only find out I can't get in until mid-January, but I was advised to see my regular doctor because it was related to me, 'this probably has nothing to do with your surgery.' HUH?? Say what??

I am so weary of relying on people to do things for me....I am the caregiver, not the caretaker and it is really beginning to depress me that I can't do things on my own and yet everyone seems to think it is okay.

Hmmm, I can't put my pants on without help, can't tie my own shoes, can't put my own bra own (I am not allowed to twist), while I can fold clothes, I can't put them in the washer or the dryer or carry them up stairs, that is another thing...stairs kill me! I can load the top and unload the top of the dishwasher, but not the bottom, I have to open the fireplace with my feet and toss a log in hoping it goes where I need it to, I can't get in or out of the tub by myself and need help taking a shower.

I can continue on with the list, but I would just bore you to tears. What bothers me is that my doctors want to blame it on each other. My surgeon tells me all my spasms and cramps are my Fibromyalgia and my Rheumatologist needs to take care of it, he tells me some of it might be, but funny it started AFTER surgery.

I love Christmas, I used to bake tons of cookies, make fudge, go out in the crowds to shop and now, sadly, I can't do most of it as my back hurts!


karen hopkins said...

Jean, I am praying today, and have passed this prayer request to 2 of my frinds, who are my tried, and true prayer warriors, both of which know the pain of physical limitations. One has firbomyalgia, the other MS, and is in a wheelchair.. Both, however , are strong believers, and both are adamant about praying healing over those that need complete healing. So girl, I have emailed both of them here, about your post here, and today, we will all three getting together, and we will spend time praying specifically for healing for you.. Hope you didn't mind that I just emailed them a copy of what you have shared.. Love you lady... hang in there... Fod IS good, and God IS there with ya...

Rannyjean said...

Oh gosh no! I am so humbled! I don't know when you prayed, but after I read this, I could feel the Holy Spirits anointing. Thank you my friend!