Wow! First Pat Robertson makes his horrible call about divorcing a spouse with Alzheimers and then I am uninvited to the ladies bible study I attended all year. Yes, I can see Christians are on the attack everywhere.
Last year many of you may remember I was attending a Titus 2 Ladies Bible study that was teaching me so much about myself and God and the plans He has for me and I was changing my way of thinking.
I was part of an incredible group of women who made me laugh and smile and at times cry. I learned to pray out loud in my group and felt comfortable.
You will also recall I left one church for another. It was mainly due to no longer feeling comfortable attending a church where the owner of the company I was working for attended, it was a very sad and uncomfortable decision when I made it, but I knew it had to be made.
In spite of the change to a different church, I still continued my ladies weekly bible study and looked forward to it all summer long. Though I knew I might miss a bulk of the meetings, I knew other women who were being mentored through the teachings because they couldn't attend the study.
Heading into the local WalMart on Weds. I ran into one of my study partners/team members and told her I had spoken to the pastor and she told me I could buy the book (the church charges $25 I found it tonight on line for $15), but I could not attend the meeting.
Sadly, she hugged me, put her arms around me and her head down and told me she knew this, there was a discussion about it, they are worried I will reveal the secrets of the team...I hadn't yet and I won't even be around so how could I do that? She told me she was sorry. I asked her if she would mentor me and she agreed.
When I got home I was visibly shaken and my husband told me to thank this wonderful woman but to turn the mentoring offer down as she will be shunned if the church finds out. So, I sent her an Email thanking her but declining her offer.
Later that evening, get IM'd on Facebook by another team member, we are chatting about this and that when I asked her if I had understood the pastor and if she knew. Her reply changed to ice...Thats right, you can't attend & she immediately jumped off facebook.
I sent the pastor an Email asking her if I had really understood I can't attend. Here is her reply copied directly from my Email:
'Hi Jean, I just got your email today -- I have been away from the computer for a few days. Actually, I would rather you didn't ask one of those ladies to mentor you as they will be working with the new ladies we have coming to Titus. Please feel released from your contract to complete the study since you are no longer attending our church. I hope you are having a great day!'
My husband does not attend church. This has really bothered him and he asked me to ask her if she was telling me this as a pastor or a person. He just told me that he is amazed that a church who is supposed to represent Jesus Christ, fellowship and love has chosen to shun me like I am a leper just because I attend another church.
I wished I had saved the Email I sent her. It wasn't very nice, I am sorry, I do not feel like being nice at all. I told her she was acting like the Pharisee's in Jesus day and while she talks the talk of Jesus she sure doesn't walk the walk.
I also asked her to not be surprised if I am not all smiles and politeness when I run into her in town.
This has hurt me pretty deeply. I have my new church and I love it, but right now I feel like taking a church sabbatical.
This just stinks!