Monday, July 30, 2012

Limbering Up...I Hope

So, many things have happened to me in the past 3 years and most recently, the past 8 months with two back to back back surgeries, discovering I have a hearing impairment and loosing my job due to that hearing impairment.

When I left my job in 2007 to move to Washington state, I had planned on going back to work and the economy tanked, so I found jobs I could do that helped pay bills.  Our credit tanked, our home is worth less than 1/2 what we paid for it...well, we can sell it for $80K and the bank wants us to sign a modification for $152K and I am in complete turmoil over this.

I finally go back to the career I love in emergency communications and get terminated due to a hearing loss.  It threw me into a deep dark depression some of which I have recovered from.  This coupled with my chronic back pain and spasms after surgeries and one can say I kind of gave up a bit.  I was lost, unorganized and confused.

Not much got done around here, because I sat around on the couch, slept, kept the curtains drawn and just withdrew.  None of you would have known that however!

When my disability was approved, it lifted a huge weight off my shoulders, I could breathe, I didn't have to feel like I was a bad person because I couldn't work anymore and I realized I had to feel better!  So, I joined the local YMCA!

However, while I dropped the kids off each day to swim, I made excuses for why I couldn't go.  Then I met Michelle.  Michelle is a fitness trainer who signed me up and she has called me to check on me.  I had to become accountable to her in order to motivate myself.

Today for the first time,I got up and I actually went to a class that is geared to people who have difficulty with movement and though I was the youngest in the class and couldn't move as well as the others and hurt like made right now, I went and I let Michelle know I went and I will go back Wednesday and try again.

If I continue to sit around, I will never move, but if I get out once in awhile and at least try, perhaps the sun will shine just a bit brighter in my world today!


Sara said...

Good for you - a tremendous start for the week. We have to take 1 day at a time.

It was a good reminder for me today too!

jennifer robin said...

As if you haven't got enough going on in your life!! You are an amazing lady my friend!! Just reading what you have been through, is enough to get me motivated!! I could afford to loose upwards of 60 plus pounds. You go to the YMCA, and I will loose this added weight that keeps me from being as active as I would like to be!!

Kristin said...

This is great! I am so happy that you are enjoying the Y. Things are turning around!

Quiltingranny said...

Sara and Jennifer thanks so much for your support. Jennifer it is hard for me to get motivated due to my pain levels, but I am determined to also lose as much as I can. You have a deal my friend, we can support each other!

Quiltingranny said...

Thanks Kristin, but not so sure right now I am enjoying it! HAHA!!