When I left my job in 2007 to move to Washington state, I had planned on going back to work and the economy tanked, so I found jobs I could do that helped pay bills. Our credit tanked, our home is worth less than 1/2 what we paid for it...well, we can sell it for $80K and the bank wants us to sign a modification for $152K and I am in complete turmoil over this.
I finally go back to the career I love in emergency communications and get terminated due to a hearing loss. It threw me into a deep dark depression some of which I have recovered from. This coupled with my chronic back pain and spasms after surgeries and one can say I kind of gave up a bit. I was lost, unorganized and confused.
Not much got done around here, because I sat around on the couch, slept, kept the curtains drawn and just withdrew. None of you would have known that however!
When my disability was approved, it lifted a huge weight off my shoulders, I could breathe, I didn't have to feel like I was a bad person because I couldn't work anymore and I realized I had to feel better! So, I joined the local YMCA!
However, while I dropped the kids off each day to swim, I made excuses for why I couldn't go. Then I met Michelle. Michelle is a fitness trainer who signed me up and she has called me to check on me. I had to become accountable to her in order to motivate myself.
Today for the first time,I got up and I actually went to a class that is geared to people who have difficulty with movement and though I was the youngest in the class and couldn't move as well as the others and hurt like made right now, I went and I let Michelle know I went and I will go back Wednesday and try again.
If I continue to sit around, I will never move, but if I get out once in awhile and at least try, perhaps the sun will shine just a bit brighter in my world today!