However, during this time, I feel I am being led in a new direction and perhaps one in which it really is okay to sit back and enjoy the ride. Though I must say, the pain and back spasms I have had the last 4 days gives one, nothing to enjoy and hits me with agony, night after night!
However, yesterday I completed reading the book, The Yada Yada Prayer Group Gets Caught,' and realized I am very much like Jodee, I want to jump in with both feet all the time without really taking time to see what God or anyone else wants.
This, I realize is one of the reasons, God with His infinite wisdom and I believe sense of humor, has me needing to be taken care of as opposed to taking care of others at this time in my life.
It is freightening for my husband and I during this time of my not being able to work, but perhaps, this is where God wants us to be for some reason. I believe my lesson from God that speaks to my heart more than anything, is Ecclesaiastes 7:8 which states: 'The end of a matter is better than its beginning, and patience is better than pride.' WOW!! Patience is better than pride! I need to keep repeating that as a mantra and perhaps it will sink into my thick skull!
So, it was with pleasant surprise when we returned home yesterday to several boxes on the front porch (none of which I am allowed to lift) and I found that a dear internet friend had sent me this book by Joyce Meyer. Wow! I do believe God is leading people to show me how I need to change and embrace my solace and peace at this time and stop trying to rush everyone to do things my way!